The summer sun is low in the horizon and there is a faint ghost of a breeze. The direct heat has subsided, but the humidity is still thick. I just finished working on my scholarly article for the day. Now it’s time to return to my nightly blogging ritual.
This morning I blogged about the first five of 10 core values I had listed in my Rituals for Living Planner. In that post, I discussed kindness, purpose, expression, the balance between individuality and community, and learning. As the sun begins to fall behind the trees, I begin to contemplate the last five:
Discipline: This is a trait that I highly value, but it is also a trait that I struggle with the most. As someone with bipolar disorder, I am prone to impulsiveness. Impulsive eating, impulsive spending. Untreated, bipolar disorder can lead to a destructive level of impulsivity. Perhaps that is why I value discipline so much. It shimmers on the horizon like an oasis. It is the holy grail of productivity, and I watch others practice with awe as though they appear invoke a super human power beyond my abilities. But, I am not completely incapable. I simply have to keep my tools close at hand, a constant reminder of what I really want and what I need to do to get there.
Devotion: This is probably the easiest value for me to manifest. Admittedly, it is not easy to gain my devotion, but once won, it is unshakable. Like “purpose,” devotion is a core value I cannot live without. I have a deep need to love others, a small circle of others, but it is a need nonetheless. To win my devotion, there must be an unconditional bond. We know the good and bad about each other, but still consider ourselves fortunate to be connected.
Optimism: I feel I am at my best when I am optimistic. Some might say I am too optimistic, and perhaps at times I am. Although, my bipolar brain is prone to the pessimism that grows out of anxiety and depression, I see it as my false self. Pessimism is the lie my dark brain tells me as it tries to push me into despair, but optimism is a choice I make to believe in the best possible outcome.
Vision: What does vision mean? Vision is the ability to imagine your ideal reality and create the action steps to get there. Vision isn’t just a representation of the future. Vision is a manifestation through daily action. Vision breathes life into all my other core values because without vision, they are just words.
Persistence: This is the sister of vision. It is the choice to take the right action each day. Without persistence, vision would never manifest. Dreams, goals, and values would dissolve into nothing. Persistence is the next step in the right direction. Persistence is getting back up when you fall. Persistence is starting over when you fail. Persistence is a gift of love you give yourself.
I’ve enjoyed writing about these core values. Some of my responses even surprised me. I guess that’s why I love to blog so much. It’s like having a conversation with myself. I can reach out into the universe and sing my song to the endless sky. If it resonates with someone else, we have a unique opportunity to connect and our tribe grows. I hope you all have a wonderful evening.