I wrap my fluffy robe around me and pile on layers of heavy blankets. It’s the day after a stressful situation and I am feeling the day after effects.
The day after a stressful event, I usually feel a little tired from the adrenaline rise and fall. I also feel emotionally vulnerable. I want to go into my room, get in my bed, and pull the heavy pile of blankets over me. It’s not depression. I don’t feel a sense of sadness or hopelessness. I recognize that my life is good, and I still look forward to living it. I just need a little extra rest. A little extra support. A little time to recover.
I don’t always have that luxury, though. You can’t put your life on pause. Life keeps moving forward whether you choose to participate or not, so I got out of bed today and headed to work. I graded assignments, advised clients, read research and even laughed and joked with my peers. I wasn’t pretending per se, but I was performing. Sometimes, I wear my persona like a costume to keep my life running smoothly. I’m sure I’m not the only one. Who hasn’t gone to work sick, or tired, or worried? You never know what quiet burden someone may be carrying.
It helps to know I am not alone in my struggle. It helps to know others struggle, but carry on with hope and determination. It helps to know that tomorrow will be different. For now I just need a little extra rest. A little extra support. A little time to recover.